Life Has No Meaning Anymore...

Ha! I love that quoet from Interview With The Vampire. But thats the felling today though. Yesterday, I had to attend a funeral for my Uncle Larry. He's my dads uncle and I really don't have a relationship with that side of the family. I couldn't even carry on a normal conversation with my own g-ma! It pisses me off that no matter how hard I try I'm still "Marty's kid", so I must be a low-life drunk like him then, I must not to amount to anything in my life cuz of Martin! I don't see how they could look down at me because of who my father is! I'm sorry he's a screw up! But don't think that of me! I still can't see how my cousin Dani is the golden child when I wasn't having sex at 13! I didn't have a baby at 15! So why am I the screw up? Why do they treat me like that? I hate it!